May 29, 2007
Memories in Music
Back when I was in a freshman in college I didn't really understand how people linked music to particular feelings or people in their life. I remember having a conversation with Alex about her feelings about particular NIN songs, and it just didn't make any sense to me.
I'm older now and I like music better than I did then. I've been through darker times and darker feelings. I do understand now how Alex felt.
Most Americans don't think much of nostalgia. It is, but we don't usually think it is good or bad. It all depends on what you're remembering, I guess.
I have a few songs where I have pushed past the memories because I love the music, but there are others that I love but can't push aside. They remind me of who I am and the lessons I have learned in life, often at great cost.
I guess this sounds terribly dark. I was really just thinking that it is too bad I lost most of my AMVs during my move from one computer to another. I was looking up a few of them online this evening. For nostalgia's sake I guess.
The Right Now AMV is still beautiful and bizarre. It makes me a little sad that I'm not a hard core anime fan anymore when I watch it.
The Rurouni Kenshin/Touched AMV can't make me cry anymore. It just reminds me what it feels like to have someone you love slip through your fingers. How hard it is to let go, even when you know it has to end. And you will lose something that you're never getting back.
There are others, but it's hard to remember the ones I haven't re-found yet. General music isn't that different, although most of it is not so heavily charged for me.
I don't like listening to the Dark City soundtrack anymore, despite still loving the movie. Too many thoughts and too much desperation tied to that music.
The Nightmare Before Christmas songs still make me laugh and sing along. It's not all bad.
I just thought I would share I guess. I don't have a line on the best AMVs anymore and my links to new music are a bit, eclectic. I don't have the ups and downs that would tie my memories to music the way I used to either. My life has been calmer and happier for the last few years.
Sometimes it's good to remember the past and not take what I have now for granted.
And yes, I know I missed my Monday photo update. It's late. I'll deal with it tomorrow night.
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